Friday, November 04, 2005

I think that the majority of you will be thorugly bored by this post. However, I was so touched by this post I almost cried. I was touched that Cui Peng could inspire people so much. I was touched that this person could be such a big fan of Cui Peng. I don't think I'll ever be like this person. The only person that ever had and ever will inspire(d) me was myself. Actually, now that I come to think of it, I'm inspired by Cui Peng to love the Chinese language. No, it should be influenced, not inspired.

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"我想对鹏说"
鹏,其实,我根本不敢想,我跟你会有相见的一天

鹏,我喜欢你,但是,我不敢去爱你,连想都不敢想,毕竟你太完美,也要有一个如此美好的人来配你,

鹏,我每天都在看赤子,不知道为什么,一般不看电视,可那天,就想看,看了之后,一发不可收拾,就喜欢上你

鹏,我也有理想,有愿望,我也知道自己不能再浪费时间,有太多的事需要去做,可是,每晚就是想看你的片,我控制不住自己

鹏,我一直感觉自己是一个失败者,以前也很有抱负,可是一个都没能实现.受了挫折,我就不想起来,可是,我看到你为了自己的目标,不顾一切,勇往直前,我想,我也不能那么儒弱

鹏,我现在有一个愿望,希望自己能当一名老师,教幼儿德育,仁义礼智信,做一个教育好下一代的好老师,这是我现在的梦,以前不敢想,可是现在,我愿意为这个目标去奋斗,希望能帮助更多的孩子实现他们的愿望,成就他们的人生

鹏,这个愿望,我前阵子,也逃避不敢去想,去奋斗,可是,人应该是要有理想的对吗,人就是应该朝着自己的理想去奋斗的,对吗?

鹏,明天开始,我应该,要好好珍惜时间,为自己的理想而奋斗了,你引发了我的斗志,我也希望自己能成功,像你一样, 无所畏惧,心地善良,宽容慈爱,面对一切的人事物.

鹏,我会永远支持你,不管是影视,还是唱歌,我都会像一个朋友一样,默默地支持着你,也在这,为你祈祷,希望你能心想事成,一切如意,得到你所想得到的一切.

鹏,也许,我的理想不会实现,但是,就算失败,我也要全力以赴,这样,我才不会后悔....

希望,我能实现对自己的诺言,不至于失信,,,,我很佩服那种为了目标,全身投入的人,因为喜欢你,所以,我希望自己变好,变理智,变上进,变宽容,变仁爱,但努力我不求什么回报,我只是希望自己能尽自己的能力去做,结果随缘,但不能放任自己不努力,天可负我,我不可负天.....

就算这些话,你看不到,没有时间看,但是,我已经跟你说了,我就要努力去做........
也希望这个家的各位亲亲们能支持我,帮助我实现自己失败后的第一个愿望.战胜自己

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实在是太感人了... *sobs with a mixture of sadness and happiness* She wants to be like Cui Peng and I want to be like her! The part about not daring to love Cui Peng was a bit exaggerated though. How can a person love a person who doesn't know you? I love him but only in an idolising manner. One question though, what does 无所畏惧 mean? My Chinese is quite lousy. It's not lousy for my age(in fact, for Singaporean people that are 12 years old, I think my Chinese is quite good, haha) but it's lousy enough. The reason why I like my idols and admire them is because they're seemingly perfect. Who doesn't want to have a perfect life and be a perfect person? I find myself liking the Chinese language more and more. That's good, isn't it? If you ask me if I prefer English or Chinese, I would say I like both equally. I know how exasperating and irritating to not receive an answer though, so I shall force myself to reach a decision... I like Chinese better but I like reading in English more. I hate reading in Chinese unless it's necessary. Why do I like Chinese then? It's a beautiful language, don't you think so? 我想睡了... 晚安! =))

HUG(: