Wednesday, November 30, 2005

-=-Warning: This is a post where I pity myself alot. Do not read it if you hate such posts.-=-

Those two members of NewS that acted in the drama serial I bought are Nishikido Ryo and Uchi Hiroki.

I know I've said I won't blog 'serious' posts but other than 'serious' posts and clarifications, I don't seem to have anything else to blog about and if I don't blog I feel horrible. All I want to do is make clarifications...

I know I hurt some people's feelings (Angel, for example) when I say they're stupid. Maybe Angel isn't hurt by it anymore because she's used to it. I admit, I like to say they're stupid and compare my results with people because I am unsure of my place in life. I want to be a level above others, who doesn't?

Alot of the time, I just want someone who is not stupid to talk to. Someone who doesn't use abbrevations and someone who isn't too rebellious nor too goody two shoes.

I shouldn't discriminate people who pity themselves and put in on their blogs. I do it too and at least they are being honest.

I have to say I would rather be smart and lonely rather than stupid and have alot of friends. Alot of people are bound to be just laughing at the person's stupidity to make friends with them and believe that they are equal. I don't want to waste my life away like that.

These days I find that if I had the choice to boost my looks and become the world's prettiest woman or boost my IQ tp 300, I find that I would rather boost my IQ.

Sabishi.

Nobody to talk to. Nobody with common interests as me. Nobody to laugh with at the same thing (s).

I know, there's always my family but the feeling is kind of different. I have to say that I am quite scared that they will leave me. I don't know who I'll lean on if my family decides to leave me.

If you're smarter than me, I automatically dislike you because I don't like losing. Losing is horrible. If you're on equal level (give or take some) as me, I treat you as competition. If you're stupider than me, I find that I can't communicate with you.

I don't like the feeling of guilt. I like calling people stupid. I don't like smarter people!

Argh. Good then, I won't have to clarify myself anymore.

HUG(: