Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I've suddenly realised something. I was quite startled when I realised it. I realised that I've been thinking that I'm different from others when I'm, in actual fact, not. I maintain my stand that I'm not the same as other youngsters but I'm not exactly different. What I've been thinking of myself is actually all caused by... Self pity.

EW! I hate self pity! It gets to me then I get all horrible. The worst thing about it is the embarassment. Nobody thinks it's a very embarassing thing but I keep reprimanding myself. It's really embarassing and I can't face up to myself. It's horrible to have to face up to the most important person in your life because what you can't bear is hearing his opinions. Everyone else might not matter but there's bound to be one person whose opinions really matter to you. So, I keep reprimanding myself after I've done something stupid and I can't bear it. The dumbest thing is, I find it even worse not facing up to the truth.

Well, I still don't care for my 'friends'.

HUG(: