Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I'm listening to 'Angel' by ShinHwa now... I was listening to their album 'Brand New' and I realised that I'm actually quite put off by Eric's rapping. I don't quite like Minwoo's singing either. I reprimanded myself for thinking such thoughts and I also reprimanded myself for wanting a Yuto blogskin more than a Cui Peng blogskin. I shall go and buy Photoshop later and make a blogskin each on Cui Peng and Yuto.

So, I really like ShinHwa only because of Dongwan's and Hye Sung's vocals.

Would ShinHwa be my favourite band if I didn't like the song 'Angel' so much? Would I still respect Hye Sung so much if it wasn't for the fact that when I got depressed over various and weird reasons last time, he was my greatest comfort?

Ah, crap. Even if I'm not that into ShinHwa's music/acting skills/hosting/personalities, I shall still support them forever. I guess I'm not mature enough to appreciate them. Hey, they're still the most talented band I've come across though.

Nakajima Yuto forever! My mother said he's cute also but she also reminded me he's only 12. What, I'm only 12 also! What's wrong with being 12? The younger my idols are, the better it is. Then we can grow up together, no?

Why is it that I feel like I'm betraying ShinHwa by not being mad over them and betraying Cui Peng by liking Yuto more than I like him? I guess it's because they were once the most important parts of my life. Ah, what a fickle minded youngster I am. Well, now that I've said all this load of crap, I would like to say that I do like ShinHwa and Cui Peng, they're just no longer my favourites and no longer as important to me as they once were. Goodbye to all the older men I liked. Hello to the pure idols! By saying pure idols, I mean those not very talented ones... Blearrgh, Yuto can't sing! Who cares, so be it.

I still have some crap to say.

The reason why I like idols who are younger now is because I kind of want someone that I can grow up with and I find it impossible these days to shout "Ah! Cui Peng!" or "Ah! ShinHwa!" in a really crazy manner when I see them. I can't love them (in an idolising manner), I can't go crazy over them, they're far too mature. I can only admire and respect them (in a daughter like manner) and wish to be like them when I'm older. They're my role models. I guess I'm sick of being practical. I want to go crazy(over my idols) and shout maniacally over my idols whenever I see them. When I see ShinHwa (on television or on the net), I go quiet and just appreciate them. I want someone whose dreams have not yet been fufilled and someone who is still full of young and vibrant energy as an idol. I don't want someone I appreciate, I want someone I can really like as a person, someone who is more or less impractical. I know it is impossible for me to ever know my idols in person but they, at least, provide some comfort to me in life.

I'm not so different from other youngsters after all.

HUG(: