Merry Christmas~ Here's a picture of Kohei Murakami as Santa Claus for you. I know I've posted it before but I can't find any other picture of my main idol(s) as Santa.
These days I really like Kohei san. I don't know why, probably because he gives people a very friendly feeling. He can look really cool and mature but most of the time he looks very friendly and smiley. I can't really call him innocent looking though. Only Yuto chan looks innocent. Ryutaro's looks are quite innocent like too but then he's only 10 and which kid doesn't look innocent at 10?
I found Anne Frank quite irksome at the beginning of her diary because she was, in a nice way, too innocent. In a less nice way, a childish spoilt fool(I am one too but oh well, that's not the point). I find that I really can't stand innocent people. That's why I can't stand kids. As in, I can't stand the majority of people 15 and below. I'm okay with abbeviations these days but I don't think I'll ever be able to stand 'nortx' and 'NoRtX' types of abbreviations. Back to innocent people. You know, those type who think that the entire world is good or those type who think only for themselves. Anne Frank was the latter. But as I read on, she got more mature so I'm beginning to like the book more too.
I still disagree with her on many parts though, like the part when she was reading her sister's book(or rather, looking at the pictures) while her sister had gone off somewhere and when her sister came back and wanted the book back, Anne Frank refused to as she wanted to look at the book for a few more minutes. I would be irritated too. If I was reading the book first and if it wasn't your book, I should have all the right to have the book back.
I'm really disappointed that I didn't get into the Japanese course although motyher agreed to hire me a tutor if the appeal didn't work. Partly because she's bound to hire one of her students and I want a QUALIFIED teacher. You know, I've never wanted to learn anything as much as I want to learn Japanese. When I listen to Japanese songs, look at Japanese magazines/books/news/brochures, listen to a person speaking Japanese, listen to a Japanese radio channel/interview or watch a Japanese show/interview, I really want to understand the language. I had looked forward to studying Japanese for an entire month(ever since PSLE results) and I was so sure that I would get in. And I didn't. It's not just a passing phase, I don't want to learn Japanese just because of my idols. It's not like when I wanted to learn Korean, I only wanted to learn Korean because of Won Bin/ShinHwa/Rain etc. etc. I've wanted to learn the language since I was very very young, I really can't remember when.
That said, I know that no matter what happens, I'll still learn Japanese even if the teacher is not qualified although I'll always be sad that I couldn't learn Japanese from someone qualified. I want to learn as part of a class, I expect that it will be a lot more fun. Learning as a single person, I know I won't push myself, I know I'll just go,"Haiyah, nobody competing with you, want to do homework or not also never mind, teacher won't scold one." I know I won't be as diligent as I would have been as compared to being in a class but I will always have passion for learning Japanese. Still, if I don't get to learn it with the class I know that the passion I have for learning Japanese will be greatly lessened.
I don't know when I'll stop liking Hyde. I hope that I never stop liking him and admiring him.
Pressure is good for me because it acts as a motivator. I'm sure if that there was no competition I would become very lazy and stupid. I'm glad that my mother is around during examinations because if she wasn't there to make me do assessment, I would surely fail my examinations.
Old flames really die hard. Especially when you really liked that person. Oh my gawd, I still like Robert (Please, none of you tell anyone I knew 2 - 3 years back about this)! Gosh, I heard his voice the other day and I had this feeling, it was a kind of tingly feeling. I felt it everywhere in my body. OH MY GAWD WHY DO I STILL LIKE HIM. (But I prefer Hyde, ahaha.) I like his voice and I like his personality and I like his looks and I like his style etc. etc.
I don't know if I'm crushing on him or anything because when he's with another girl I feel that the girl is very lucky but I honestly don't feel jealous at all.
I lost my L'Arc en Ciel album... It's The Best of L'Arc-en-Ciel 1998 - 2000. I shall go buy it again.
And again, minah san, Merry Christmas~
HUG(:
