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Today I actually feel quite happy. Why? It's because that I feel that I haven't changed at all. I'm still the lazy, boy crazy and evil me. I even skip school! Let's take today and last Friday as examples. Slowly, I find the teachers in secondary not so scary anymore. But I do have a phobia of school. Facing everybody and the homework, it's scary. Doesn't everyone feel this way? I find my november and december blog posts disgusting, I was way too arrogant. But looking back, I still think that I was right.
I feel so happy that I changed my MSN display to this extremely happy and innocent Daiki Arioka picture.
He's so cute right?!
Okay okay today's topic is about Heaven and Hell.
Everyone will have a customised Heaven (like based on what makes you feel most peaceful and happy). Heaven will be a reflection of Earth since Humans are based on how God looks. For my customised Heaven, I imagine It to be white. All white and there will be this peaceful feeling everywhere. The sky will be a blue with white clouds and it will rain happily at times in the day. At night, the sky will be pure black with countless glittering stars. There will be white buildings with white computers, white televisions etc. etc. and everyone will have this glowing feeling around them. There will be this very peaceful silence and everyone will be happy. There will be no troubles and everyone will like everything for some reason. There will be all genres of music and shows. Everything in shops will be free. And I will choose to live in Japan. Depending on how faithful a Christian you are and how good you were on Earth, you will be able to choose what house you live in. Everyone will at least get a 3 room condo. And of course I will be able to see my idols walk around on the streets and you don't have to worry that they are tired because if you want to sleep, then you sleep but actually we don't have to sleep at all. You don't have to worry about getting their signatures because they can seperate them into many different bodies although to each individual they will only seem like one and they somehow will be focus on only you. They will be able to tell the truth and everyone will be open minded and be happy for them no matter what happens. Everyone will be young and our grandfathers will be young but they will look old to us, get what I mean? And Heaven won't be overcrowded cause, well, God is omnipotent.
Of course, we will have to work as well.
Depending on devoted you are to God and how good you were on Earth, your job can be either a messenger spreading God's love and turning people good on Earth(lowest job), work in Heaven as a salesperson/taxi driver/bus driver etc. etc.(lowest job), destroying ghosts on Earth as only good can defeat evil(middle job) or do accounting and do all three jobs at once(highest job). The good thing is that the higher job you have, the more benefits you get. The ironic thing is, the higher level you are, the more work you have to do! But as I've said, since you can split yourself up and focus on each thing, you can play and work at the same time. Isn't that so cool? If you fall in love with a mortal though, then you can make the choice to be reincarnated to be with the mortal. Chances are that by the time you fall in love with the mortal, he will be an old fogey. Haah. Last thing, everyone will be able to teleport if they want to. If they don't want to, they can take taxis. You can have a car/bike too if you want.
This is an example of Heaven.
I'm sure you can feel the happiness and peace.
Now, on to Hell.
Hell will be for all those non-believers of Hell. I think it's unfair though. When I look at Hyde and listen to Hyde singing, I think,"Hyde does not deserve to go to Hell. God, why did you create such an amazing person if all he's going to be in the end is an unhappy soul in Hell?" My grandmother may be a devoted Buddhist, but she doesn't deserve to go to Hell either. The Buddhist culture does seem very welcoming. My grandmother says that everyone as long as they repent and are good, no matter what religon they believe in, they will all still go to Heaven.
Isn't it nice, to be able to go to Heaven even if you don't believe in the Buddha? This makes the Buddha seem very forgiving, doesn't it? This said, if I didn't know that God existed, I would probably be a Buddhist now. Just because of this point. Grandmother believes in the Buddha because, just like Christians believe in God and Lord Jesus Christ, she believes that the Buddha has made many sacrifices for her.
God, sometimes I feel you are unfair.
I feel very unsafe after thinking this way as I am scared that you will not stand by me and give me your help and protection anymore but God, this is what I feel and I am sure that even if I don't say/blog this out, You will still know how I feel.
I am grateful for everything You have done. I admit that I am not a good Christian. But I still believe that I am right in my thinking. God, if you are omnipotent, why can't You just make everyone believe in You? Why can't You just defeat Satan?
Oops. I digressed. Well, I believe that everyone will have a customised Hell too.
My Hell will be very sad, lonely and I will be alone just going on biding my time by for eternity until I have truly repented. There will be no other people besides me. I will be alone. There will be silence, but this time it is an eerie, peaceful and sad silence. When night comes, I will go back home. There will be a comfortable bed and fridge and everything I need, but I will not be able to sleep, eat or do anything. There will be NO televisions/computers/books (save for the Bible) and music. No cars or anything else. There will be roads and plants but everything will be sad. There will be buildings filled with things like clothes and food. But I will be too sad to take anything. I will be so sad that I can't cry. I won't smile or be angry. The sea will be comforting in a sad way but it just makes me more sad.
Of course, there can be worse Hells (constant menstruating, our limbs torn apart etc. etc.) but God does not want to torture us, He merely wants us to reflect.
Hell, is something like this to me.
The sky will be a sad light grey with grey clouds with constant light sad rain in the day. At night the sky will be a sad dark grey with dark looming clouds and sad heavy rain.
You can't commit suicide either. Because even if you do, you won't get injured or feel any pain. Which would make you feel worse, wouldn't it.
Sometimes I wish that humans just disappear when we die.
Then I would live my life to the fullest now.
But I can't, because I know that life never ends.
Or maybe when I feel really depressed, I can just commit suicide without worrying about going to Hell.
I wish that we just become a black spot in the Universe when we die.
Unfortunately, it's impossible.
Yes, you are right. I think I will go to Hell.
HUG(:
