Monday, October 23, 2006

Wong cut his hair and I find him incredibly ugly right now.

Jiaying and Weining, the best friends say that he looks better.

But Natalie and Brenda agree he looks worse.

It's like, he's seriously damn ugly why do I like him I find myself so dumb and stupid and normal and yuck and why do I like Wong he's totally ruining my day today, argh!!

Y(>_<)Y

After having a beautiful, lovely 2 months of 24 hours continuous, serene happiness, I have a bad day.

I found out today that Wong has a girlfriend. He's MARRIED on friendster, I now then realise. Ting ting says his girlfriend is very cute.

That's not the bad thing actually. Have then have lah, none of my business since even if he don't have I also don't have a chance.

The bad thing is, I realised I am freaking normal.

I don't wanna be normal!

Why am I so normal and average and yuck?

Why why why I work so hard to be not what everyone is but it all comes down to the same thing.

Everyday I work so hard to be different and I'm just not.

This sucks.

Being rebellious very good meh, won't people get sick of you?

Being exceptionally nice/smart good meh, there'll always be people who want you to just shut up and go and die.

Talking about sex all the time good meh, don't you find it irritating and dumb to talk about it all the time?

Being normal good meh, then nobody will notice you.

I am dumb. Only I believe whatever Wong say.

He say he got no handphone, I believe.

He say he's 35, I believe.

He say he's single, I believe.

He say he's married and has 3 kids, I also believe.

They all turned out to be fake lah, duh.

I'm so stupid and ugly and this is so damn depressing!! =((

Okies.

Tomorrow is a happy day.

I am listening to Hyde right now.

I can't remember if my 1 week is up.

But I feel like shit right now, and nothing can cheer me up besides lovely Hyde.

Tomorrow, I will be unique. Tomorrow, I will be satisfied with myself. Tomorrow, I will be happy. Tomorrow, I will be weird. Tomorrow, I will love myself again.

Today, I'll just wallow in self pity and cry my heart out.

HUG(: