Wednesday, December 27, 2006

random incoherent entry.

I wanted to blog about my mr. wong plant. but then I feel damn tired.

So I'm just going to anyhow paint my nails, paste random nail stickers on my painted nails, add a protective cover, wait for nails to dry, then sleep. Which will take me 1 hour plus.

I woke damn early today lor!! I woke up at 12pm leh!! That's like, almost in the MORNING??

tiredtiredtiredtiredtired.

school's reopening, and I seriously think there's nothing to look foward to. Ewen good lah. Still in primary school. eshuen even luckier. next year primary 1. And me?? Secondary 2. Got to grow up. Don't want to grow up. GAH.

Recently, I find my mother very perfect. It's like, whatever problem there is, she can miraculously solve it. When I grow up, sure cannot be like her one lor.

When I grow up, I bet I will go bankrupt or something. Get divorced. Get abortion. Children go jail. Sure will have messed up life. sian.

Can I don't grow up and don't face stupid problems. Can I don't grow old cause I don't want to become even more fat than I am now. Can I don't grow old cause I don't want to get wrinkles.

I think if I ever become as fat as Esther I will commit suicide. yah lah yah lah I'm very rude whatever I know Esther won't mind. At least, I think she won't mind.

okay. Back to my nails.

I'm painting them cause I'm going to eat Sakura Buffet and then FINALLY watch Death Note 2 tomorrow with aunty and sister.

Then Friday I'm going for 6H gathering.

Next Monday going out with Yujun and Esther. Uncle Cinderella might be coming also.

HOW CAN I DON'T PAINT MY NAILS?!! It's the last time they will be painted for a long long time lor.

anyway, I'll possibly have a more interesting entry tomorrow.

For now, I'm just going to rant on and on. Because I ren3 very long already, don't say out can die.

Glynis, Valerie and Inez all not going the 6H gathering. Valval's overseas. Glynis got cramp. Inez got CCA.

aiyah. I don't really want to see Inez and valval. don't want to see Inez because I'm not interested in her. don't want to see Val val cause I've seen her 2 times during november and december holidays already.

I want to see Glynis because I like her. and I like her very long already lor. 2 years. that's the longest time I've liked anyone.

I feel upset. I wish I could be more understanding, but I just can't. That's why I find my mother amazing.

I wish I could tell my mother that I think she's amazing and that I, um, love her and that I do appreciate her, although I may not seem like it. But I just cannot bring myself to say it.

I feel embarassed to tell her that, but at the same time, I'm very scared that if I don't say them, I won't have the chance to say them. It's like, everyone might die any moment.

Hopefully, she'll be alive for a long long long time. Then I'll have time to find some occasion to tell her. Or write what I feel down.

oh yah, anyone free on january 2nd, I want to go out again before school starts.

HUG(: