hellooooo.
I wanna be funny and loud and crazy.
But I can't.
I've been very emotional and depressed lately.
I've got a sore throat and flu.
Then my mother ask me to skip school tomorrow.
But I wanna gooooo.....................................
Mum is very contradicting.
That day, I said something about pimples. Like, pimple scar then pimple scar lor, can go for surgery to remove. Then she got angry and said,"YOU THINK WE SO MUCH MONEY IS IT!! Money is hard to earn hor!!"
Yesterday, she said,"Ay, wanna go courts? I buy you new camera." =__= I didn't even ask for a camera and she's just offering me one. Any camera that I want also can. And she even asked me if I wanted to go to China for 2 days just to go shopping.
Siao one.
And she keeps on saying she got money, don't need to go and prostitute myself for money. I think grandmama influenced her. Grandmama has been watching 'Ying Huo Chong De Meng' and she's very scared that I'll be like Enna//Xishi. She was very generous with her ang pow money too... She gave me $128.
I cry for very small things. Yesterday, my mother chided me for not peeling my own prawn and making grandmama peel them for me when her finger was hurt. Then I cried cause I didn't know grandmama's finger was hurt and I didn't ask her to help me peel also.
I cried when I got home cause I have no money to buy Laruku albums.
I cried cause I'm fat.
I cried cause I can't communicate with God.
Money!!!!!!! I've been spending so much!! Every week I buy new clothes and new make up!!! Now I got no money for Laruku!!!!!! =*((
Yesterday I spent $47 (after discount) on Cure and Neo Genesis, $28 on MAC lipstick, $13 on blue mascara and red lipliner (John Little had sale...) and $10 on food.
Argh. I really feel very depressed. And shopping makes me less depressed. But how long can this continue? I shouldn't waste money like this.
okay. I'm not going to crap on anymore.
pictures.
Somewhat satisfied with my eye make up that day.
Me, Karchian. My jaw is photoshopped. I only photoshop my jaw now cause it's really big. My nose is natural, lazy to photoshop it.
Rachel, me. Unphotoshopped jaw. This is how fat my face is.
I bought this shirt and tie at $18.90... As you can see, it totally doesn't suit me, so it's going to rot in my cupboard. This picture is not photoshopped, it's just the angle that makes my face look not fat.
I met jiejie jiawei and Takashimaya. She's really shuai!! *___* I'm really ugly in this picture, thus the funny face.
Unphotoshopped.
Unphotoshopped also. Was sending Yujun off to Germany... =*((
okay.
Bye bye loh.
Wish me luck.
HUG(:
