Changed blog url.
http://ameblo.jp/miss-estherbelle
It's okay if you don't wanna relink me, I don't know how to link people in my new blog so I won't link you also. o(*^-^)o
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MR. WONG CAME TO ST. NICHOLAS TODAY!!!!!! ≧(´▽｀)≦
However, I ponned school today and did not get to see him. ( ￣っ￣)
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Anyway.
I am no longer depressed. (^_^)v
Turns out that I was only depressed cause I couldn't blog. (-_☆)
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hellooooo.
I wanna be funny and loud and crazy.
But I can't.
I've been very emotional and depressed lately.
I've got a sore throat and flu.
Then my mother ask me to skip school tomorrow.
But I wanna gooooo.....................................
Mum is very contradicting.
That day, I said something about pimples. Like, pimple scar then pimple scar lor, can go for surgery to remove. Then she got angry and said,"YOU THINK WE SO MUCH MONEY IS IT!! Money is hard to earn hor!!"
Yesterday, she said,"Ay, wanna go courts? I buy you new camera." =__= I didn't even ask for a camera and she's just offering me one. Any camera that I want also can. And she even asked me if I wanted to go to China for 2 days just to go shopping.
Siao one.
And she keeps on saying she got money, don't need to go and prostitute myself for money. I think grandmama influenced her. Grandmama has been watching 'Ying Huo Chong De Meng' and she's very scared that I'll be like Enna//Xishi. She was very generous with her ang pow money too... She gave me $128.
I cry for very small things. Yesterday, my mother chided me for not peeling my own prawn and making grandmama peel them for me when her finger was hurt. Then I cried cause I didn't know grandmama's finger was hurt and I didn't ask her to help me peel also.
I cried when I got home cause I have no money to buy Laruku albums.
I cried cause I'm fat.
I cried cause I can't communicate with God.
Money!!!!!!! I've been spending so much!! Every week I buy new clothes and new make up!!! Now I got no money for Laruku!!!!!! =*((
Yesterday I spent $47 (after discount) on Cure and Neo Genesis, $28 on MAC lipstick, $13 on blue mascara and red lipliner (John Little had sale...) and $10 on food.
Argh. I really feel very depressed. And shopping makes me less depressed. But how long can this continue? I shouldn't waste money like this.
okay. I'm not going to crap on anymore.
pictures.
Somewhat satisfied with my eye make up that day.
Me, Karchian. My jaw is photoshopped. I only photoshop my jaw now cause it's really big. My nose is natural, lazy to photoshop it.
Rachel, me. Unphotoshopped jaw. This is how fat my face is.
I bought this shirt and tie at $18.90... As you can see, it totally doesn't suit me, so it's going to rot in my cupboard. This picture is not photoshopped, it's just the angle that makes my face look not fat.
I met jiejie jiawei and Takashimaya. She's really shuai!! *___* I'm really ugly in this picture, thus the funny face.
Unphotoshopped.
Unphotoshopped also. Was sending Yujun off to Germany... =*((
okay.
Bye bye loh.
Wish me luck.
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I'll be blogging with pictures tomorrow!! Pictures of me, me, me, me, ME!!
haha I am damn zilian. v(*^-^*)v
Yujun's gone off to Germany... =*(( I miss her already =*((
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Hey hey.
I just thought that I should inform everyone that my computer's been confiscated (I'm using my sister's now without her permission) and that if I do blog during this period of time, my blog entries will be pictureless and boring.
I AM VERY WORRIED THAT PEOPLE WILL STOP COMING TO MY BLOG!!!!!!
=*((
Anyway.
I think teacher student relationships are stupiddddddddd.
And I wish that people would stop comparing my like for mr. wong to all these dumb things.
Because I am not them, and they are not me, and I'm not stupid like them okay.
Today, another teacher student relationship thing came out in the newspaper.
It's so retarded cannnnnnnnnnnnnn.
So stop comparing me with them.
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erm estherbelle talked leeshi round last night. leeshi is the one who blogs most of the time.
estherbelle,"HELLO?! LEESHI AH, YOU HAVE LIKE SO MANY FRIENDS CAN?! Just that they're people friends, not friend friends!! But they're all still relatively patient and nice to you like Shirley, Brenda and your usual recess group, Weining, Jacinda bla bla bla!! And mummy Danica leh?! Your own mother you also don't ren4!! Zhen bu xiao!!"
And leeshi tried to argue but estherbelle kept on shooting off names of people through her mouth like a bullet train.
haha okay I'm really happy now o(^-^)o
But I'm supposed to be depressed, why am I happy!!! =*((
okay I'm depressed now (^-^)b
Sheesh this is so retarded, no matter what I do, I'm still a very happy bubble.
However!!!!!
I am a very emotionally unstable person, so please be understanding and patient towards be hah!!!! UNDERSTAND?!!!!
muack muack~~ o(^3^)o
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estherbelle has a ridiculously short attention span and is no longer crushing on lim wenjing.
She, as of today, likes a tomboy girl whom she doesn't even know the name of and does not know if she will meet again.
I think I'm very anti social, argh!! I do have a list of darlings, but I'm not really close to them?! Y(>"<)Y
And my list of darlings are probably ALL the friends I have. I have so few friends that I can't even pick a few out to be in my list of darlings. =__=
Current list of darlings:
-pishyposhy family. (yes, I know it's weird to include uncle cinderella, but he's my god uncle so I'm including him anyway)
-jiejie jiawei, aunty apple, cousin charmainie
-chenchen, siying, val val, glynis (whom I no longer have a crush on too)
-Renyue, Jiaying
And the thing is, I'm not even close to any of them. Sheesh. Maybe I should go for the emo look, be depressed and be a loner??
But I hate depressed people!! =*((
Okay, I'm depressed now o(^-^)o
And congratulate me, I can see Wenjing tomorrow!! Did I say I stopped liking her?? Never mind. I can see her tomorrow!!!! Wooh!!!!!! v(^-^)v
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Happy 38th Birthday to my beloved Hyde sama~~
o(^з^)o-☆Chu!!
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Due to the lack of better things to do, I went for youth church yesterday with Karchian. It turned out to be okay, but I still think speaking in tongues is, ummmmmmm, rubbish. I think I should be attending it weekly from now onwards though. o(^-^)o
And and and I met Wenjing's cousin, Lay Ling yesterday!! They look really, really different. T__T
pictures.
Me and ummmmm I forgot her name.
Me and ummmm I forgot her name too.
I said my hair sucks, and you can see from these 2 pictures, it really really sucks. It's worse when I don't style it okay.
This is me, with Shirley in school. Unstyled hair. I just brush my fringe to one side and the result is me looking retarded.
Should I wake up 10 minutes earlier to style my hair and adjust it throughout the day in school, or should I continue to have retarded hair and risk Wenjing hating me cause I'm so ugly??
I think I shall stop being lazy and style it. Argh. Sleep, my beloved sleep!! =*((
Other church people...
Layling and Karchian
I forgot her name and I forgot her name. But I think the person on the right is really cute. *__*
Fake eyelashes on the top from The Face Shop that I bought yesterday and fake eyelashes from Missha that Glynis bought for me some time ago.
I wanna say that I hate fake eyelashes like the one on the bottom. They're so unobvious can!! >:(
I'm sorry Glynis, but I'm going to recycle your present and give them to Shirley who has incredibly short eyelashes. ARGH AT LEAST IT'S BETTER THAN LETTING THEM ROT IN MY MAKE UP BAG RIGHT?!!
Y(>"<)Y
Lastly, I would like to thank God for giving me such a nice life and for my seemingly permanent contentment with life despite piles of homework and failed tests.
But I hate stupid Jia Hui the science leader.
stupidjiahuistupidjiahuistupidjiahui!!
The secret to happiness is to cry your heart out and mope around in self pity for 1 hour EVERYDAY.
It's a waste of time but, well, it works for me. o(^-^)o
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I hate my hair and I'm very tired.
I've been crying everyday!! But I'm not stressed and definitely not depressed, I've been crying because I'm lacking sleep.
I wanna sleep... when I talk... when I walk... when I jog... during lessons (my beloved Japanese classes included)... when I see lim wenjing... when I wake up... when I blog... when I use the internet... when I do homework...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Estherbelle has been very irritating recently, she keeps on arguing with leeshi and forces leeshi to go to school ON TIME and not sleep in class. Which results in a very tired me and leeshi finally winning today and me ponning school yet again.
e.g.
leeshi (during class),"wo yao shui jiao..."
estherbelle,"CANNOT!!!!!!!! You better concentrate ah!!"
leeshi,"concentrate for what?? Go home also can study what."
estherbelle,"Fine, think of it this way then. If you sleep and drool, sure very ugly one, do you really want to embarass yourself??"
leeshi,"ugly then ugly lah, mr. wong also die liao. And I'm so ugly in school already, uglier a bit also never mind one."
estherbelle,"wenjing see also never mind is it. Then you sleep lah, sleep lah!!"
leeshi,"walao you ah always wenjing this wenjing that, why you like wenjing, she's not even cute lor!!"
estherbelle,"Oi, wenjing is like waaaaay better than your stupid Wong Yoon Foong can, he is so gay lor!!"
estherbelle leeshi,"... ... ... you two shut up lah, I'm very tired and listening to you two arguing gives me a headache,"
And obviously I choose to stay awake for the fear of drooling in my sleep.
Slept 15 and a half hours today, am going to sleep somemore now, bye bye.
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funny picture. The words you cannot read say,"unwillingly harassed!!!!! BEWARE OF SUCH PERVS AROUND YOU."
By the way, the molester is me. I hold hands with everyone who has the misfortune of sitting besides me.
yah lahhhhhhhhhhhh I know I am a pervert and very much disliked by people.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. Sorry lah, Gwyneth.
I guess that in school, I'll have to stick to holding hands with Jiaying/Janet/Renyue/Puisan/various 1Unity06 people who are used to my abnormal ways.
3rd language, I have my beloved primary school classmates Jingrui and Shimin.
Outside, I have Charmainie, Jiawei and various primary school classmates to hold hands with, I guess.
I'm not sad/offended/angry because I'm super used to such stuff already, mainly because of this blog.
But still!! Some people are just so weird!! What's so disgusting about holding hands!! Y(>"<)Y
okay, fine, I'm the disgusting one.
Beware of this girl, named leeshi.
leeshi's a creep, a monster and she's going to eat you up.
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My like for Ekie is almost all gone.
And, yes, Kuek the cactus is dying as well. I have not been talking to it.
x_______x
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erm Siyi said she thinks Wenjing is not scared of me.
And I'm still going to hold everyone's hand, Wenjing's included.
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A story.
"leeshi has an obsession with Wenjing.
And Gwyneth told leeshi that Wenjing is terrified of leeshi and doesn't know how to react.
Yesterday, when leeshi ponned school, Janet told her that Wenjing got upset and cried in school because Shirley and Mavis wrote on the chalkboard a lot of times 'Estherbelle loves Wenjing' and 'Wenjing loves Estherbelle' during recess.
leeshi doesn't know what to say.
leeshi wouldn't cry, but that's because she's bisexual. If people say she's lesbian, they're half right. And to her, crushing on people openly is very normal.
But she knows, deep down in her heart, she is not normal and really should grow up."
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DOT DOT DOT.
eh, I don't expect anything from Wenjing leh. Wenjing is straight, I am bi. I like Wenjing, Wenjing doesn't have to like me. SO WHY IS SHE STILL TERRIFIED OF ME!!
I wanna cry already lah!! But Wenjing is like damn nice lor, she still lets me hold her hand, despite my very obvious obsession with her.
erm, new classmates (if any bother to come lar), it's very common for me to be obsessed with people. Last year, I was obsessed with Natalie Chung, Benita Koh and Krystal Chng.
This year, the first victim is Wenjing. =____=
I won't like, molest the people I'm obsessed with or what, it's just a one sided thing, please don't be scared of me!! Y(>"<)Y
And, no, I have not forgotten my beloved mr. wong. It just happens that I see Wenjing almost daily and mr. wong is not in my school anymore, thus my obsession with Wenjing.
I still wish mr. wong was here, then I wouldn't like anyone except him. Unfortunately, he is not, so I'm going to continue to like Wenjing.
Well, I guess I can only console myself that at least school is interesting, not just homework, study and hateful teachers.
People, are you all going to be scared of me?? Or stand by me and continue to let me hold your hand despite the risks??
I know you're all going to be scared. =*((
But it's okay. Because I am a monster. And people are naturally terrified of monsters.
I can only say it is your misfortune to know me.
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On to happier things.
classmates, from left to right, Brenda, Wenjing, Tracy and Jomain.
the maths temporary remedial group (not including leeshi), Jia Hui, Shirley, Yingtong I think, Youshuang
Youshuang and Shirley. Youshuang never look at the camera leh!! >:(
The person who sits next to me, Mavis. she's very cute!!
Mavis again. And I insist, MAVIS IS CUTE. but I got no obsession with her.
A horribly edited picture of Wenjing. But I still like it!! hahahahaha.
Mummy Danica, looking incredibly tanned. I told her to open her eyes bigger lor!! Then she don't want. =____=
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aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiish.
Don't be scared of me leh.
I promise that I won't eat you up.
I really don't expect anything.
I'm just weird, I guess.
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I cannot resist the urge to put up this picture.
Cute Wenjing and pretty Gwyneth!! o(^3^)o
unfortunately, pretty Gwyneth closed her eyes while I took the picture, and refused to pose properly for another one. evil. =*(( But you can see that she has a super nice nose!! (^-^)b
I insist!! Wenjing is cute!! I INSIST!!!!!
Just patronise me and say she's cute lahhhhhh. Or I'll temporarily dislike you. hahahahaha.
and I still think Youshuang is pretty.
(x_____x) nyammy nyam nyam ~~
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I've decided to teach make up step by step today!! wooh!! now you can look like leeshi!! (^-^)b
yah, I'm lacking stuff to blog, so?? .___.
before:
after ( irrelevant, but you can see my dog in the background!! =DD ):
Yujun, this is why I say foundation, concealer and blusher is very important. See how much better my complexion looks with it!! X_____X
Let's start!! v(^-^)v
step 1!! line your eyes with black liquid eyeliner.
step 2. Cover the rest of your eyelid with black eyeshadow, or black pencil eyeliner, the effect is the same.
NOTE!!
1)You cannot cover your entire eyelid with liquid eyeliner, because the liquid eyeliner will stick together and pieces of skin will show amongst the black.
2)You also cannot cover your entire eyelid with pencil eyeliner//black eyeshadow either, because pencil eyeliner//black eyeshadow tends to fade, and you won't get the same feel as liquid eyeliner.
step 3. Add some bright eyeshadow!! I use silky girl's funky eyelights pencil in blue and in silver.
final step. Curl your eyelashes, add mascara (or fake eyelashes, whichever you prefer) and add 1/3 or 1/4 of a fake eyelash to the corner of the bottom of your eye.
end. o(^-^)o
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I went for a haircut with my sister yesterday.
Before cutting my hair. Yes, I know I look fat here.
After. It's terrible, I know. =*((
A better view, and me looking sulky.
My sister permed her hair slightly to reduce it's flatness. She looks damn funny!!
okay, my hair really sucks, I wanna cry. I'm going to look terrible in school tomorrow. =*((
And leeyi dropped 7kg in 1 month, because mummy brought her to this specialist and he gave her medicine and it cost my mummy 1000 plus dollars.
I wanna cry, she's losing weight so fast, and I'm can't seem to lose any weight at all.
Life's not fair.
And I still miss mr. wong.
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